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| User: | angsty_padawan (8328891) =The space that's in between Insane and Insecure=
The Journal of Anakin Skywalker |
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| Name: | Anakin Skywalker | |||||
| Website: | Star Wars Crack RPG | |||||
| Location: | United Kingdom | |||||
| Birthdate: | 07-25 | |||||
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| Bio: | Physical Description: OOC!Ani pretty much looks like Anakin from Attack of the Clones. He, for a short period of time, grew out his padawan cut and looked more like that of Anakin from Revenge of the Sith but has now gone back to the padawan cut. (see picture below) Anakin has a few features which distinguish him from his counterpart. Firstly, he's got an earring. It's plain silver hoop. Also, if you're lucky enough to see him without a shirt on, he has one nipple pierced. If you turn the infamous "Slutty One" around, at the base of his spine Emotional Profile: Emotionally, Anakin is a wreck. He suffers from Bipolar Disease, Histrionic Personality Disorder, and Separation Anxiety Disorder. At the forefront of all his problems is his tumultuous relationship with his Master, Obi-Wan Kenobi ( ![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} queereye4jedi). Anakin is very obsessively attached to his Master, relying on him to provide him the stability he very much lacks. He developed a crush on Obi-Wan sometime during puberty and has spent nearly his entire adolescence pining for him. His view of himself is directly derived from how he thinks his Master views him. When Anakin seems happy, it's almost safe to assume he feels he is loved by Obi-Wan. When he's self-conscious, it's usually because he feels perhaps Obi-Wan doesn't like something about himself. When he is truly sad and distraught, it's usually because he feels Obi-Wan hates him. Having left his mother at such a young age and never having a father figure as a small child, he actively seeks both these things out in his relations with other people. In women, he prefers nurturing types. In men, older, more fatherly types. When he was taken from his mother and after Qui-Gon died, he felt immediately that the role of mother and father was provided by Obi-Wan, again strengthening his obsessive attachment to the man. Anakin likes to feel loved. He likes to feel that he's the center of someone's universe as he will never be the center of his Master's universe. He therefore seeks out and almost encourages people to fall in love with him, subconsciously trying fill the gap that he has in his life from not being Obi-Wan's true love. In the end however, it always comes down to him not being able to give other people the emotional devotion that he gives his Master and almost always ends up hurting them because of this. Anakin is extremely self-destructive. He loves pain because he wants to be punished for being such a failure. Many believe his fascination with pain to be a sexual thing when indeed, it is almost wholly a psychological need to hurt himself, to make himself suffer. He enjoys things like starting fights and riots in some case and revels in the feeling of going at it in hand to hand combat. Anakin has very low self-esteem. He feels that because his Master loves Qui-Gon more than him that it is because he is unworthy or somehow defective and not good enough. He has taken to spending hours in front of the mirror trying to figure out what is wrong with himself that he's not good enough. His ego is very delicate. A misplaced tease can very easily lead to a total emotional breakdown. Recent Developements: Anakin has become involved with OOC!Palpatine( notfromajedi) whom he is more attached to than he'd ever admit to. In the Chancellor he finds someone who is all the things he wants in a partner. He's doting, caring, fatherly, and kinky. He has also figured out that the Chancellor is indeed Darth Sidious and this has actually strenthened their bond. He also has developed...or more accurately, just admitted to himself a longtime crush on OOC!Qui-Gon( pirate_jinn). His fascination with Qui-Gon boarders on hero worship but he also feels incredibly calm with him, opting most of the time to just sit with him and feel loved rather to engage in sexual activity which, is in itself, very odd for Anakin. That does no mean however he's not attracted to the man but perhaps for the first time has realized that his emotions can be expressed in ways other than sex.Words of Wisdom from Anakin Skywalker: "But you're so perfect. Have you looked at yourself in the mirror lately? It's like...the Force was having a good day and thought, "Hey, I'm happy. I'll make a person who looks like how happy I am.". And you were made. Perfect, and gorgeous and sexy and cute and manly...all combined into one easy to store package." -to Obi-Wan "I can't be at peace with who I am. I hate myself." On girls compared to Obi-Wan: *giggles* But that's what's nice about them. All soft..and squishy and...grabable. Men aren't as grabbable. *sighs* I don't get to have sex with women enough. *thinks for a moment* Really though, having sex with you makes up for it. Just you know, it's sorta like...um..candy. You're candy. And I could eat candy forever really...cause I love candy. But sometimes you want broccoli. Not all the time. Just sometimes you get a craving for it. To His Double: *frowns shaking his head* Nothing worse than an emotionally unstable Obi-Wan Kenobi. I feel for you. Really I do. I'm not sure they realize how much we feel. Force, my Obi-Wan can't take a piss without me feeling it by proxy. ...more to come later....  Stylin' Anakin ((Blue-robed Anakin provided by the ever-wonderful strangealchemy.))   Anakin is, in the great scheme of naming ![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/community.gif){kind=small} omg_lightsaber characters after plants, a Cherry Tree.((played by elledwen)) | |||||
| Interests: | 38: angst, beagles, being tall, building droids, bunnies, chancellor palpatine, cherry flavoured lube, cherry trees, cookies, d/s, death sticks, eating, fixing droids' loose wires, flirting, flying, food, fucking with timelines, handmaidens, hanging out with droids, having midi-chlorians to spare, having pouty lips, killing tusken raiders, leather, monkeys, obi-wan kenobi, padme naberrie, pathetic lifeforms, polygamy, pornographic holovids, qui-gon jinn, roboclaws, siri tachi, sky-diving out of speeders, spankings, speeder bikes, the force, training with master kenobi, twirling my lightsaber | |||||
| Schools: | None listed | |||||
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| Friend of: | 42: _broken_circle, angsty_knight, angsty_padawan, boba_fettered, cerulean_aayla, cin_drallig, dagobahdestined, darkside_anakin, depagonedarkish, depouille_noir, deviantjedi, elledwen, flowerytease, former_queen, gothy_offee, i_am_not_padme, jaded_dustbin, knight_tachi, lil_librarian, mistress_padme, mon_mothma, nabooangel, naughtynautolan, obiwan_kaboozi, olee_starstone, omglsnpc, pirate_jinn, que_serra_serra, queereye4jedi, quigonjin, rockofd00m, save_ferus, senatorbail, sithly_tyranny, sly_moore, tallisibeth, tattooednhorny, thelivingforce, touchme_quin, vaapad_master, whosyourmaster, xxxanatos | |||||
| Member of: | 1: omg_lightsaber | |||||
| Account type: | Basic Account | |||||
